~Chocolate Lava Cake~




















Chocolate Lava Cake from Gelato Bar (Galaxy Mall)
*look at the chocolate filling flowing out! YUMMY*

~2008 Resolution~

Well, gue tau ini uda telat banget, as it's already been 3 months long since the beginning of the year..
Tapi ngga pa2 dech, better late than never..

Anyway...
Ini pertama kalinya gue bikin resolusi tahunan kaya gini en biarpun baru dipost sekarang, tapi semua resolusinya dah gue buat dari tgl 1 Januari 2008.

Yeap, hari pertama di taon 2008..sip dah =)

Moga2 aja, semua (oh, sebagian besar dech) resolusi yg gue buat untuk taon ini bakal sukses en bs dilihat hasilnya di akhir taon 2008...hehe *ngarep mode on*

Ini dia listnya =
*eng ing eng........drurururururuururrDUM*

1. Lebi deket dengan Tuhan
~ Duluuuu banget, pas jamannya gue masi SD, hampir tiap Minggu sore kita (ortu, gue en dd) selalu ikut misa di gereja. Dulu gue SDnya di sekola katolik, jadi bisa dibilang lumayan aktif lha ama kegiatan2 gereja...mulai dari ikut misdinar, lektor, lomba mewarnai buat acara Paskah, ampe ikutan drama2 greja (*ehem* di sini gue jd Jesus lho *ehem* perna jadi malaikat Gabriel juga *ehem* tp waktu TK perna dapet peran org cuci2 baju doang, en ini peran pertama gue*mwahahaha*). Tapi sayang sekali, ITU DULUUUU..
Sejak gue pinda dr Banjarmasin ke Surabaya, smua kegiatan2 itu berkurang drastis skale! Apalagi sejak gue mulai sekola ke Singapore-Australia-skarang balik indo lagi (baca : dr sekitar taon 2002 ampe taon lalu), bisa dibilang gue ke gereja cuma waktu Natalan doank.. Iya betul, NATALAN DOANK. Jadi, untuk taon ini, gue pengen lebi aktif lg di gereja...ya ga perlu ampe tiba2 jd aktif banget bangeeet banget jg sich, tapi paling ga better than last years.

2. Lost 10 KG
Waktu awal taon gue nulis resolusi ini, which means 1st January 2008, berat gue 50 KG. Beraaaat banget kan??? Herannya, ga ada orang2 yg nyadar kalo gue perna gendut..
Ga tau apa gue waktu itu bener2 cuma keliatan chubby en ga gendut ATAU orang2 di sekitar gue yang jadi pada baek hati smua ampe2 ga ada yang tega ngasi tau kalo gue emang gendut.
Gue harap, yg bener tuch alasan yg pertama..hehe.
Anyway, sekarang berat gue uda 48 KG. I wanna lost the 1st 5 KG by the end of June, and it means I need to be 45 KG by then. Furthermore, I wanna be 40 KG by the end of this year.
Therefore, it makes me "lost 10 KG" during 2008.

3. Adopt healthier lifestyle
I need to eat more veggies, fruits and drink MOREEEEEEE water.
Cut down sugary food such as cakes, donuts, ice cream (OH MY GOD!!!), chocolates (another
OH MY GOD!!).
Rutin ke gym (Motivation is strongly needed to drag my very own self out of the house and to the gym).
Tidur lebi teratur (I have a difficulty to sleep almost every night, mungkin gara2 kebiasaan gue yg sering tidur pagi trus bangun kesiangaan kali yach. Tapi ngga juga dech, gue emang sering susah tidur kalo malem.. So, to achieve this target, I am now depending on sleeping pills so that I could sleep "that night" and hopefully the "next night" I could sleep faster. But no, I am not addicted to those pills *or at least I try to believe that I'm not*

4. Learn how to drive
I wanna drive and it seems like almost everyone at my age already have their licenses. I want mine!

5. Pursue my education
I finished my Diploma of Business Management last year. But, I don't wanna stop there. For Godness' sake, I want my bachelor degree. Somewhere this year, I should already start my course for business or hotel management, either one will do.

6. Lebi sabar a.k.a ga moody
Ga cepet bete/ngambekan/emosi en JGN TERLALU CEPET NEGATIVE THINKING, karena ga semua yg "kita pikir bener" itu ternyata emang "bener". U know what I mean.

7. Become a great cooker
Let's pray.

8. Learn, at least, 1 new foreign language
Am thinking of learning chinese.

9. Kalo ampe taon ini jadian lagi ama orang, belajar berkomitmen
Pokoknya jgn ampe "suka-dipdkt-jadian-bosen-putusin" kaya yg dulu2. En jgn nerima cowo kecuali dah bener2 YAKIN mau ngejalanin hubungan yg serius ama dia *bukan brarti dulu gue maen2 doank lho*. Yg pasti jgn ampe putusin org karna hal2 sepele (kalo ampe nantinya malah diputusin, itu artinya nasib...tapi amit2 dech).

Ok..that's all..
Wish me luck to be a better me =)

*I am so sleepy, but I shouldn't sleep. Hungry, but shouldn't eat*

~Self-trust is the first secret of success~

~Happily Ever After~

Jadi gini yach, gue ga abis pikir, kenapa ada orang2 yang ortunya masi HAPPILY MARRIED ngeraguin kalo pernikahan2 dengan happy ending itu ADA.

Before I go further, gue cuma mau bilang kalo isi blog hari ini, NGGA ditujukan buat orang2 yang ortunya cerai (atau yg ortunya ngalamin kekerasan dalam ruma tangga). Karena kalo ortu lo sendiri aja cerai, ya wajar kalo lo ngerasa happy ending/cowo baek/cewe baek itu hampir ga mungkin ada. So, this entry it's not for you.

Satu cerita dongeng Disney yang paling gue suka, Cinderella. Dongeng ini NGGA dimulai ama perjuangan en pengorbanan sang Prince Charming untuk ngedapetin sang Princess. Bagi yg mikir kalo di dongeng ini cuma pangerannya doank yg usaha....
Well, I suggest you to read the story all over again, and this time..please read it from the beginning of the story till the end and perhaps you will also realized that every fairy tales have their own ups and downs. Princes and princesses di dongeng2 itu kan ceritanya jg ga langsung ketemu trus merit gt aja.. *jgn bilang lo cuma baca ending ceritanya doank*

Apa yang terjadi setelah mereka married?
Emang mungkin juga sich, si Prince Charming mulai bosan ama Cinderella en selingkuh dengan sodara tirinya ato Cinderella yang jatuh cinta ama pengawalnya karena si pengawal selalu ada buat dia waktu si Prince Charming sibuk ama tugas2 kerajaannya (Oh well, gue baca ini di blog laen, with those kind of examples she gave, I wonder...apa jgn2 salah satu ortu si blogger selingkuh? MAAF buat si blogger if you ever happen to read this).
Tapi, knp ga terlintas dlm pikiran si blogger, kalo mungkin mereka emang ga selalu rukun tapi perhaps they COULD avoid arguing over silly things, punya rasa toleransi, pengertian en cinta yang tinggi buat each other and hence itu ngebuat hidup mereka bahagia..

Let's talk about "happy ending" in real life.

My grandparents. Pernikahan mereka bahagia. Gue yakin pasti ada masalah ini itu di dalemnya, tapi EVERYBODY who had the opportunity to get to know them could see just how much they love each other. Ampe sekitar beberapa taon yg lalu, my grandpa passed away. Menurut gue, itu salah satu bukti kalo happy ending itu ada, happy ending yg bener2 ending ga cuma ampe di pernikahan doank (bahkan ampe "till death do us apart", u see?).

Di keluarga besar semua orang, pasti ada salah satu anggota keluarganya yg happily married.. kalo bkn ortu mereka sendiri,ya mungkin aunties, uncles, cousins ato yg laen.
*don't tell me kalo smua family members lo ga ada yg hidupnya happy abis merit!*

Di kehidupan nyata, emang banyak pernikahan yang bermasalah (selingkuh ato cerai). Tapi banyak jg kan pernikahan yg bahagia. Lagian yg namanya merit itu dijalanin ama 2 orang. Ya wajar aja kalo sekali2 tengkar. Nyokap-anak ato kakak-adik juga bisa tengkar.. Padahal mereka tinggal satu rumah, dr kecil ampe gede selalu bareng2.. Apa itu berarti "keluarga bahagia itu ngga ada"? OmiGod!!

Finally, kenapa sich ada org2 yg selalu negative thinking? Misalnya dongeng Cinderella diperpanjang, mereka expect smua hal2 buruk di cerita lanjutannya seperti perselingkuhan, tengkar ma mertua, dll..cuma karena mereka nganggap kalo ceritanya dibuat kaya gt, maka smuanya bakal jadi lebi REAL!
Apa hidup mereka segitu penuhnya ama hal2 buruk ampe hal2 baek jadi surreal buat mereka? Emang SEGITU BURUKnya yach love stories mereka en orang2 di sekitar mereka?
Kalo iya... WELL, YOU HAVE MY CONDOLENCES..
*UPDATES : Knp Disney ga ngelanjutin cerita hari2 setelah pernikahan all the princesses? Mungkin disney mau anak2 ngelihat hidup secara positive. Karena belum tentu semua anak bakal punya ortu/pernikahan yg bermasalah ato hidup yg susah. Tapi yg pasti, disney mau nulis dongeng en bukannya naskah sinetron*


~Try to differentiate between FAIRY TALES and ROMANCE NOVELS. In case you don't know, they are hell different~

~Pure Jealousy~

Gue sebel..ama org2 yg sukanya underestimate orang laen, yg nganggap orang laen tuch ga ada apa2nya dibanding DIRINYA SENDIRI cm karena dia ngerasa hidupnya lebi susa dr org yg di"underestimate" itu! Damn it!

Gue tau kalo, at this very moment, gue ga kerja ato sekola alias nganggur-ga ngapa2in-di ruma mulu-en taunya cuma jln2 (or wasting time to be exact!).
But, I don't see how my condition (kengangguran gue) affects YOUR life in any way!

And to my surprise, ada 1 (or perhaps more) orang yg nganggap gue tipe cewe yg ga bisa apa2, cuma karena gue lg ngangur2 kaya skarang ini while dia punya pekerjaan..
Orang yg nganggep gue bisanya cuma jalan2, makan, tidur, internetan, ngegym en shopping.

My dear! Since a few years ago, I lived far away from home.
Lo ga tau apa aja yg harus gue hadapin/rasain waktu itu..and gimana susahnya gue mesti struggled to go through it! (am talking about my school life back then, and I'll explain about it in my next post or my next few posts).
Gue ga nyalahin ketidatahuan lo itu sich.. karena dr dulu, dr kecil ampe sekarang, lo selalu tinggal di Indo, deket ama keluarga..di mana lo tiap hari bisa makan masakan rumah, baju dicuci'in, kamar dibersihin en blablabla (en hellooo...hampir selalu ada pembantu kan? di Indo gt lho).
Dgn keadaan yg kaya gt, lo mana ngerti gmn rasanya tinggal sendiri jauh dr ruma, di mana lo mesti sekola, kerja, en bersihin ruma (TANPA pembantu)???

Anyway, i wouldn't say that my life is worse/harder than yours, karena toh gue ga tau apa aja yg lo jalanin dulu en yg pasti gue tau kalo masi banyak banget orang di luaran sana yg hidupnya jauh lebi susa dr gue that if i start to complain about my life, it'd only make me look oh-so-stupid and don't know how to be grateful.

To be honest, gue ngerasa hidup gue dr kecil ampe sekarang emang enak. Poverty was never anything near to how I was raised and fed, but neither are we rich nor wealthy. I could say I have always been exposed to a very healthy, normal and average family.

I am-somehow-a spoilt child! I can get almost everything I want from my parents...and so what?
Itu ga berarti ngebuat gue jd anak yg cuma tau enaknya doank!
For your information, my parents raised me right! I am NOT a smoker, alcoholic or (most importantly) someone who thinks free-sex is acceptable.

Trus, emang kenapa kalo hidup gue lebi gampang dr lo? Kenapa kalo hidup gue jauh lebi enak dr lo? En trus kenapa kl skarang gue nganggur en lo mesti kerja?

Lastly, gue tau nganggur kaya gue itu enak! It's like taking a loooong holiday!
Walaupun kadang gue bosen, tapi tetep aja itu jauuuuuh lebi enjoyable daripada pusing2 mikirin kerjaan kaya lo sekarang.
So, kalo lo lg bete ama kerjaan...jgn lupa untuk inget2 gue yg lg enak2an di ruma en HOPE IT'LL MAKE YOU FEEL MUCH MUCH BETTER! *mwahahahaha*


~JEALOUSY IS A DISEASE, get well soon!~