~All I Need~

At this moment there are 6,570,997,721 people in the world.
Some are running scared.
Some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day.
Others are just now facing the truth.
Some are evil man at war with good,
and some are good struggling with evil.
6 billion people in the world...
6 billion souls..
and sometimes...

all you need is 1

~Life Is So Short, You Make It Feels So Long~

~If I Could Turn Back The Hands of Time~

Questions yg biasa ada di bulletin board FS. The first and (most likely) the last gue jwb2 ginian di sini..

1)Do you always answer your phone?

~ No.. kadang2 gue biarin aja, even though telpnya udah di tangan gue.. *tapi ga selalu kaya gt koq, lebi sering karna HPnya gue tinggal di kamar en gue lg di luar*

2) Its four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
~ Mhz ato Monica kali yach.. Lagian kalo emang ada perlu di jam se"ajaib" itu, mending langsung telpon aja.. coz percuma sms, dah bs dipastiin gue ga bangun

3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
~ Can't think of any... gue suka warna yg skarang..

4) Do u Like Dr Pepper ?
~ Di Indo ga ada Dr Pepper.. adanya Coca Cola en sejenisnya..

5)Do you own a digital camera?
~ Punya.. Sony DSC-T50..










*ini dia...*

6)Have you ever had a pet fish?
* hu uh... skarang juga punya. En talking about pets... gue suka banget ama anjing en ikan..suka suka suka banget! Dulu jg suka ama hamster, tp skarang udah ngga terlalu..gara2 sering beranak en skali beranak BANYAK BANGET anjrit...

7) Favorite Christmas song?
* hmmm..jingle bell.. ama My Only Wish This Year..coz tunesnya nyenengin..

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
* spend the whole day w/ someone i heart so much.. is it too much to ask for?

12) Do you have any saved texts? Who are they from and what do they say?
* iya, ada some texts yg gue saved. Dari beberapa org yg jumlahnya masi bisa dihitung pake 1 tangan.. some greetings (gd mornin, nite, etc) dr temen2.. en some random texts from a particular someone yg masi "blum bisa" gue hapus..

13) Ever been in a spore flyer?
* belum en pengen =) Tapi lebi pengen lagi naek London Eye...






















*inget Fantastic 4? (^__^) *


14) Do you have an accent?
* Errr...do I? Rasanya ngga dech...not even "logat Jawa" ato "logat Banjar"..

17)Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
* Yes.. Duluuuuu banget, waktu masi di Spore...ada moments yg rasanya bener2 ngebuat gue pengen give up smuanya.. Or those times when everything seems to be going AGAINST me..

18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
* movie ticket, Gelare ice cream.. Udah, itu aja. Weekend kmaren (yesterday is Saturday) gue bangun siang, trus males banget mo jalan2.. akhirnya internetan trus dilanjutin nonton DVD Heroes season 3. Around 9.30 p.m, rasanya bosen banget di ruma... Akhirnya pergi ke Sutos ama Yandonk en Meimutz.. Nonton (midnite) ini,






















*not my type of movie... but, doesn't mean filmnya jelek banget*



Selesai ntn jam 1.30an a.m, then pegi cari makan bentar di daerah pucang *kalo ga salah*, yg jual nasi pecel rawon... abis tuch P.U.L.A.N.G *oh how i prefer to go out at nites than days*

20) Current worry?
* I'll blog bout it another time

21) Current hate right now?
* ga ada... i dislike, not hate (^-^)

27) Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?

* hu uh...

29) Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
* en how am I supposed to know?

34) When did you last cry?
* adu kapan yach.. blum lama ini dech..

42) Do you like pulpy orange juice?
* yeap.. better than artificial flavor ones..

46) What are you saving your money up for right now?
* am not saving money right now... *bohoo*

49) What were you doing 12 AM last night?

* was watching High School Musical 3

50) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
* "skarang jam brapa?" or something like that..

~Funny, Funny How Time Goes By~

~Cross The Green Mountain~




















*Poppy = Nyo2*


Super duper random post. Btw, the dog in the picture above is mine minE miNE mINE MINE! I lurve her more than I lurve myself *en i lurve myself more than i lurve u. Hope u get the point* [damn it][lurvelurvelurve][a.k.alove]

Pagi ini gue bangun telat.. itu jg gara2 ada telp makanya bangun! *sigh*
Ada kelas jam 7.30, en kurang lebih jam segitu jg gue baru bangun [again][bangunbangunbangun][damn it ei]
En I decided to bolos pelajaran pertama pagi ini, took a bath, and then continue my beauty sleep ampe jam 9.10...

Next, janjian ketemu Alvin di parkiran kampus biar bisa ke kelas bareng2. I thought gue bolos kelas E.Project...ternyata BUKAN! Yg gue skipped pagi ini tuch kelasnya Business Inspiring. Lucky for me, dosennya ga took attendance. Kalo ga, berarti gue dah bolos 2 kali di mata kuliah itu *lega*

Sms dr Alvin = "Masya oloh..katanya bu tina inspiring diganti jadi jam set 8 sejak 3 minggu lalu..--"

Jam pelajarannya uda diganti since 3 FREAKING WEEKS AGO!

EN ALL THESE WHILE..WE (Alvin en I) HAD NO IDEA TTG ITU! *no comment*









By the way (gue ga tau kenapa tiba2 kalimat yg gue type ada garis bawahnya sgala...maklum, gaptek),




















PENGEN



PENGEN



PENGEN


PENGEN



Bagi gue, make high heels tuch dah kaya lagi di "Heaven & Hell" AT THE SAME TIME!
AT THE SAME TIME!
*skali lagi ah* AT THE SAME TIME!!!
Secara gue pendek, make high heels bisa ngebuat gue keliatan slighty lebi tinggi hence boost my confidence [ini "heaven"nya][damnit]
TAPIIIII......kalo dipake untuk jalan2 ampe lebi dr setengah hari, yach kakikupegel2jugagilaa! [ini "hell"nya][damnit]


(whatever i know u know that i still want the shoes)

~If You Want To Forget All Your Other Troubles, Wear Too Tight Shoes~

~Serendipity~

Malem en hujan2 gini, dengerin lagunya "Kisah Cintaku" by Peterpan.. mood jadi gloomy





Anywaaaaay......












DoMei The explorer...




~Obviously I'm bored~


~Hoaaahmmmm...~

Random things =

1. Dua hari ini cape banget BANGET B A N G E T ke Golden City Mall buat acara kampus. Gue masi ga ngerti nich project bisa dibilang sukses atau ga. Di liat dari satu sisi, yang penting divisi bazaar dapat vendor yg..owell, cukup. Divisi bazaar, band, basket en business innovation dapat peserta. Di sisi laen, masi ga jelas kita nich dah dapet keuntungan atau malah devisit. Yang uda bisa dipasti'in, sebagian besar vendor PASTI rugi karna...pengunjungnya sepi. Besok masih ada 1 hari lagi, last one. Badan gue serasa mo rontok, pegi pagi pulang malem. Sebenarnya ga banyak yg bisa dikerjain di sana selain bagi brochures en ngurus inventories, jadi kita bisa jalan2 keliling mall aja seharian. Tapi, me being me, i don't fancy jalan2 ga jelas di mall..bikin cape. Mau ngafe/duduk2 mulu jg ga enak ati ama yg laen.. Yang seru tuch pas lg ngumpul buat maen2 atau crita2 ma yang laen. Sama seperti waktu ospek, I guess besok malem gue bakal ngerasa rada sedi gara2 acaranya dah selesai..tapi doesn't mean gue mau kalo disuru lebi lama lagi.
p.s = kalo besok bisa kabur ke TP lg kaya tadi..then, i'll be looking for tomorrow ^_____^

























2. Bukan tipe cewe yang demen dandan "berat" cuma untuk pergi ke mall. Gue sering banget heran ama cewe2 yg kalo ke kampus udah kaya boneka, tapi blatantly stupid when it comes to study...mwahahahaha [u might think that i, myself,not THAT clever][but if u REALLY think like that and still getting lower marks than me. Then, what are u huh? mwhahahaha]. Slaen itu, gue bener2 salut ama cewe2 cakep yg juga pinter [contohnya, Retha].


















3. Gue bukan anak yg baek BANGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET, seperti ga perna pulang malem atau ga perna bolos kuliah, tapi gue juga ga binal =)
Clubbing is NOT one of my fave things to do [I didn't say I never go there or I dislike it to the core]. Tapi bukan berarti gue ngeliat SEMUA orang2 yg demen clubbing itu negative koq. In my opinion, anggep aja..we have different ways to have fun. Case closed.
























4. that's all.






~Take Me The Way I Am~

~Nah.. Not Protected~

Wanted to move my blog to www.felijelly.wordpress.com for the sake of its capability to store "protected-post".. Tapi, mungkin gara2 udah kebiasaan ngeblog di sini, jadi berasa aneh jg kalo ngeblog di sana *blah*
Lagian, seberapa banyak protected post yg bakal gue buat huh? So, until I decided to change my mind for the "?th" times *ampe lupa brapa kali*... I'll still blogging here..


Anggap aja entry hari ini seperti a SHORT message buat 2 [DUA] orang di luar sana.. karena, somehow, gue ga bisa ngomong apa yg mau gue omongin secara langsung *face to face* ke kalian..

Kenapa ga lewat email? Kenapa ga lewat message di friendster? u may ask...

Tapi,
Kenapa ga di sini? Bukannya ini blog gue? Ini terlalu "public"? My Goodness..gue rasa yg baca blog gue ga banyak..en even if some irrelevant people read it, toh mereka ga bakal tau siapa 2 [DUA] org yg gue maksud [in other words][i don't care][damn it] swt.

1. Someone out there, is thinking that I'm still mourning over my ex. In fact, dear, I got over him. 1 month after "the break-up". Not that gue nangis2 mulu selama 1 bulan itu *gila*, tapi itu jangka waktu dari di mana gue masi sedi - mikirin mulu - udah biasa..en selama itu, ada 3 atau 4 hari [ga berurutan] gue nangis *tapi ga lama,..cuma tetep aja sedi. HAPPY?!*. EN PLEASE DECH, UDAH BERAPA LAMA TUCH KEJADIANNYA?? 4 MONTHS? ATAU? UDA CUKUP LAMAA!!! Dan buat gue, 1 bulan sedi2 jg termasuk lama kaliiii... walaupun ga se'lama' org2 kebanyakkan di luar sana..en ga "semerana" org2 di luar sana juga *tapi dulunya tetep SEDI u know*. Last one, "Ngga! gue ga nembak dia... secara gue cewe gt lho!" en gue GA DIPUTUSIN *gila aja ah*. Gue en dia ampe sekarang masi temenan, kadang2 masi chat di msn, no more hard feelings [tetep][ga mau ngasi tau siapa dia][hahaha][damn it, ei?].

Sialnya, gue ngerasa ada 1 [SATU] [moga2 ga lebi dr itu] orang yg kayanya ga seneng kalo gue dah move ooooon! For this, my dear, I HAVE NO COMMENT LHA YACH
*topik ini so yesterday, jgn2 malah uda basi..haduh*

2. I'm glad that that something is finally clear between us. Owell, kind of. Gue ga mau kalo kita nantinya ga temenan lagi..apalagi gara2 hal yg penting ga penting itu. Belum tentu jg dia ga ada orang laen.

I have been TRYING to tell u the truth..to be drop-dead honest. But, gue ga tau gimana caranya buat nyampein itu smua. Have so many reasons yg ngebuat gue ga enak mau ngomongin itu ke lo. SUSAH U KNOW!

So, I'm

S.O.R.R.Y.


Tadinya, I wanted to wait for the right time to tell you that. Tapi rasanya uda ga perlu lg yach =)

*swt...bhs gue jd kacau ampe gue jg bingung lg ngomongin apa. sudah lha*

~Those who said money can't buy happiness, don't know where to shop~

~(not so) Secretly Spoken~

"Kayanya, masi taboo buat kita ngomongin hal itu yach...lol..
Gue ngerti maksud lo en...
Makasih ^^"


I'm hooked up to escape room games. I dreamt about it last night. Gue berasa so kasiaaan u know! (-_______-)
try submachine.

Seharian tadi panas banget, en mood gue jd rada rusak *rada, get it?*. Tapi smua worth it karena malemnya ujan =)
Ujan2 gini, jadi pengen naek mobil trus muter2in kota ga jelas arah sambil denger lagu.. liat2 kota misalnya? atau lewat jalan tol ga tau mau ke mana en tiba2 dah end up di malang? atau sidoarjo? *walaupun keliatannya kurang kerjaan..tapi gue suka! banget..lol*
Ngafe juga ok..di Starbucks, duduk deket jendela..with a good companion of course.

bye world

~Daaaagh~

ps: boring huh?
pps: tadi mati lampu 2 jam..ugh!

~Get Lost!~

Yay! Besok udah mulai masuk kuliah lagi (^___________^) *smile big big smile big*
- I'm telling myself to be happy = FAILED!
Tadinya gue kira bakal masuk tgl 6, tapi ternyata tgl 8... as I wished ^^ *smile lagiiiii*
- Tapi kabarnya Ubaya masuk tgl 13 lho!!!!!!! [damnit]
Trus trus, gue ngerasa bego banget jadi mahasiswi koq ga tau jadwal masuk kampus sendiri. Padahal dari awal uda dikasi kalender akademik (T.T) *stupid me*
- Kalender akademik ga guna! Ga bisa dipercaya!! Harusnya minggu ini kan pengumpulan nilai UTS ke BAA en kabarnya yg ngumpulin tuch dosen di mana mahasiswanya pada libur! Kenapa skarang jd masuk tgl 8?!
Finally, abis seminggu lebi nganggur di ruma..ga lama lagi bakal banyak tugas2 kuliah, something yang sangaaat ga buang2 waktu buat dikerjain *bayangin! Gmn gue ga seneeeng bangeet coba?*
- Bahkan nonton Gossip Girl lebih berguna daripada ngerjain tugas ini! Jualan?! Liburan gini?!
Ga berhenti sampe situ, sabtu minggu depan kampus tercinta gue bakal ngadain bazaar yg MENURUT PENGALAMAN YG SUDA2..bazaarnya tuch super duper rame! *cool*
- berasa ngebodohin diri sendiri!

Words can't describe how happy I am at the moment ^^
en this is my alter-ego speaking [damn it][am I Borat or what?][damn it]
Hooray >.< SIALAN! (-_________-)

Clue = highlight
Playing too much escape room game, it gets into me *sebodo*

Anywaaaay...since school's gonna reopen soon, I have work to do.
So, goodbye...

~Attraction And Reaction~

~Bring Non-Sense Rambling to A New Step~

I have no mood to write anything nowadays.. Ironic, since I have lots of "tales" to tell. But, what happened in Vegas, stays in Vegas. So, what happened last nite..shall not be told to anyone*agree with u Mei*. For that I will keep my mouth shut..and I believe you'll do so. History repeats itself. Foolish is what I felt...

Satu minggu koq cepet banget yach? Padahal rasanya baru kemaren mulai libur Lebaran. Anyway, kapan sich masuk kuliah lagi? Di kalender yg pernah dibagi'in, katanya masuk tanggal 6.. Tapi ada yg bilang, di papan pengumuman ditulis kalo masuk lagi tanggal 8. Mana yg bener?!

On a completely different note, gue inget pernah baca ini di radityadika.com, "The idea that we can only be complete with another person is evil". Don't you think it's true? As if saying that your own happiness FULLY depends on the presence of someone else.. En tanpa kehadiran si "the one/Mr.Right/Ms.Right", lo ga bakal complete/sempurna. Tapi, sejahat2nya itu... toh pada kenyataannya emang kaya gitu kan? Kebanyakkan *kalo ga mau dibilang hampir semua* orang baru bs ngerasa sempurna kalo uda ketemu ama soulmatenya.

Kalo ada org yg ngomong dia happy being single. Gue percaya. Tapi toh bakal ada satu titik, di mana dia pasti kepikirin juga "Where's my other-half damn it?!". Especially cewe2 yg tinggalnya di Asia (eg.Indo) en umurnya udah mendekati 30. Mungkin dianya sendiri masi pengen single, atau emang masi belum ketemu the one.. tapi people will talk eventually. Ga peduli seberapa sukses si cewe, kalo ampe umur tertentu en blum merit, seringnya cap perawan tua bakal "mampir". Cruel. [damn it][gue bahkan belum hit my 25][and am talking about this?!][damn it]

"the more i curhat ama feli, the more screwed up i become...like so indecisive...and these emo songs are getting to me!! NOOOOO"

AND THE MORE I CURHAT AMA MEI, THE MORE I FEEL PATHETIC OF BEING SINGLE.. *n gue jd ngerasa tamba pathetic lg abis ngomong ini*

After these few months gue jadi single and happy2... cuma gara2 crita ttg gimana pengennya gue ke Spore, trus disambung ngebahas ttg luv... Hasil akhirnya jd ngerasa kalo "bakal nyenengin banget kali yach kalo natalan ini bs ke spore ama org yg jd cowo kita en ngedate di sana" compared ama di Indo yg peginya cuma ke mall mall en mall.. Intinya, jd pgn dpt cwo yg bnr2 kt syg n bs nemenin ke spore brg [bare with the last sentence, will u?]

Tapi, kalo inget nilai2 UTS bentar lg keluar... *put my hands together, bring them to my chest and start saying "moga2 nilai UTSku bagus..A+ smua... AMEN! *

I am so sleepy now and blog for the sake of blogging itself. I don't know what to say anymore. Bahkan skarang gue sendiri jg rada ga ngerti ama apa yg udah gue bilang di atas. It's 12:23 PM at the moment n gue belum tidur sama sekali dr tadi malam. Moga2 gue ga mati muda gara2 kurang tidur. *en moga2 kuliah baru mulai tgl 8*

~Nothing Takes The Flavor Out of Peanut Butter Quite Like Unrequited Love~