~1.2.Poof.It's gone~

2 weeks en I could say that I'm okay now. Like, almost totally.
I miss him less.
Every time my phone beeps, gue dah ga ngarep itu sms/telp dr dia.

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*Poof*

Gone.

Emang sich tiap hari masi kepikiran, tapi rasanya ga sesakit dulu. Bagus.


Catatan pribadi yg ga pribadi2 amet :

'post-break up-pick-me-up'
1. kalo emang sedi, ngaku aja.. your friends, they might help a lot. *in my opinion, ga perlu cerita terlalu detail.. karena detail=privacy.. dan privacy lebi baek disimpen sendiri*

2. There is a quote that rang loud and true "time is a healer". En gue percaya, cepet atau lambat, semuanya bakal lewat..

3. NEVER. I mean NEVER. Sekali lg ah, NEVER.. be alone/sendirian..apalagi kalo baru2 putus. Serius dech, usahain jangan perna sendirian kalo baru putus karena bakal kepikiran hal2 yg ga perlu (en inget, ga semua yg kita PIKIR itu bener). Trus, kalo lg sendirian..perasaan sad/mellow/apa aja yg pasti feeling2 swt banget itu bakal jadi kerasa double atau bahkan triple susahnya! So, ask your cousins or your closest friends to have a sleep over at your place. In my case, gue ga dibolehin nginep di ruma temen..jd harus temen itu yg nginep di ruma gue. Penting buat kita *yg pasti gue* untuk cuma ngajak temen yg bener2 deket.. Kenapa? Please dech.. nginep di ruma orang yg lg patah hati tuch resikonya banyak. Mulai dr harus dengerin nama yg sama diucapin ratusan kali ama si patah hati, ampe kemungkinan gede bakal tidur pagi gara2 harus denger si patah hati MELACUR (baca : melakukan curhat). Siapa lagi yg punya kesabaran segede gaban buat tetep dengerin keluh kesah *huek* kita selain our closest friends? *deket banget ampe uda berasa kaya sodara* Beside punya kesabaran gede, en listening ears... they, somehow, always have the right words to comfort me.

4. Selain jgn perna sendirian, usahain buat selalu punya kesibukkan juga. Jalan2, ngafe, ngumpul ma temen2 gereja, nonton dvd trus dilanjutin ama cerita2 ampe pagi atau nyari hobi baru. Itu buat urusan fisik. Buat mentalnya, cari dech hal2 laen untuk difokusin. Kalo gue, lg konsen mikirin kuliah yg bakal mulai bentar lg *oh no!* dan beberapa hal laen *ga bisa disebutin di sini*

5. "if you think you can, you can", "if you think you can't, you can't"..Whatever you are thinking, you are right. I read that somewhere. Jadi, jangan mikir kalo you will never be able to get over that particular someone..atau you will never find someone better than that person. Kalo mikir kaya gitu terus, ntar malah tersugesti ama pikiran kaya gt en yg ada malah terus2an ngerasa sedih. Most of the time, I forced myself to think that what I need is time..maybe a little longer or perhaps a damn long one, to forget about him..en I keep telling myself that I can.

6. Alasan mantep buat ngelupain dia..en buat gue, ini yg paling efektif! KEEP IN MIND KALO PIHAK YG SATU AJA DENGAN GAMPANGNYA BISA MOVE ON..si cowo aja bisa ngelupain gue dalam jangka waktu yg LAMBAAAAAAT *apa antonimnya lambat?!* banget. Kalo inget2 ini, gue jd berasa baekkan total! Karena obviously gue ngerasa bego mikirin org yg jelas2 ga mikirin gue. En gue benci ngerasa stupid..mind that!

7. Kalo masi ga bs ngelupain juga. Ya udah, live with it.. Jgn perna mohon2 minta balik, kecuali lo yakin si cowo masi sayang *tapi tetep lebi baek jangan. Kalo si cowo masi sayang, dia yg bakal minta balik..kecuali waktu putus lo yg salah*. Your/my heart might be in pain, tapi please untuk tetep punya HARGA DIRI...


Anyway, this is a one-of-a-kind experience for me. Waktu ngerasain "broken heart" *now i feel kinda disgusted typing those two words* gue jd ngerasa itu saat2 gue jadi weak..WEAKEST! Kaya cewe lemah *not physically* en gue benci ngerasa lemah, ga bs mikir secara logis *padahal mikir pake perasaan malah harusnya lebi ga bole*, jadi cewe mehe2 gt..ga pinter abiz..damnit.

Gue punya temen cewe, a casual friend, yg "broken heart" berkali2..karena tiap kali jadian dia selalu serius en tiap kali itu jg dia jadi pihak yg disakitin. Padahal dia cakep! *jd bingung..en masi ga abis pikir kenapa bs kaya gt*
Dulu waktu dia curhat2, gue ngerasa dia koq melankolis banget sich...lemah banget! Tapi pas gue lg kena post-break up syndrome yg swt abiz itu, gue sempet mikir kalo ternyata nich cewe KUAT ABIZ! Bayangin aja, gue yg br ngerasain sekali aja udah serem ndiri kalo mesti kena lagi.. Nah dia bisa ngalamin itu BERKALI2... Kuat banget kan?!
Tapi, sekarang gue balik lg mikir kalo benernya dia tipe cewe lemah yg melankolis abis (-___-)

~Back On The Right Track~

p/s : this might be THE LAST ENTRY I wrote about something, somehow, related to him and my broken heart.

p/p/s : - "feli cepet banget sembuhnya.. yakin km beneran cinta ma dia? bukan cuma sayang?". I loveD him. Cepet? Ga juga..kadang2 masi kangen en inget dia koq..cuma ga se'ekstrem dulu. Anyway, ngomong ttg cepet/lambat.. dia lebi cepet =)

- "Kamu beneran sedih ta? Kok keliatane biasa2 ae?... Abis feli ketawa2 mulu". Emang orang sedi ga bole ketawa? lol.. As much as I hate ngerasa lemah.. gue lebi benci KELIATAN lemah..

p/p/p/s : - Don't keep asking me who is he.. If I didn't tell you when you asked me for the very 1st time, artinya gue emang ga bakal ngasi tau lo siapa dia..

- En hey, kalo lg ngafe bareng en tiba2 gue diem aja..itu artinya gue emang ga tau mau ngomong apa. Bukannya uda biasa ya kalo kadang gue tiba2 dieeeem banget? Jadi jgn ngotot kalo gue diem gara2 keinget mantan...duh. It seems like someone knows me better than myself *sarcastic nich*. You don't even know what the hell was going on..