Gue pengen minggu ini cepet - cepet lewat, karena 2 alasan =
1. Minggu depan udah masuk minggu tenang A[s].K[nown].A[s] L.I.B.U.R...yay! Seharusnya minggu depan dipakai nyiapin diri untuk UAS.. Tapi yang namanya libur, tetap aja libur ^^
2. Tanggal 22 Nov 09 alias hari Minggu nanti, stand di PTC yang dibuka demi mata kuliah entrepreneurship 3 akhirnya closing juga. Puji Tuhan Hallelujah Amen I'd have one thing less to worry about. Bukannya gue ga suka jaga stand.. Tapi itu bukan berarti gue suka jaga stand. Ah, yang pasti gue seneng tuch stand dah mau tutup. Titik.
O yach, kenapa setelah ngerasain sendiri gimana najisnya broken heart, gue jadi ga tau mau ngomong apa sama temen gue yang lagi bercurhat ria karena patah hati? Gue mau bilang =
1. Udah dech, jangan dipikirin lagi - Jelas dia bakal tetep mikirin.
2. Jangan contact2an dulu [Been there, done that myself!] - Begitu si cowo sms, dia pasti bales dengan sepenuh hati lagi.
3. All things must pass - semua pasti berlalu, cepat atau lambat - Ini kalimat yang SELALU gue inget kalo lagi sedih, bete, en sejenisnya. Tapi ini juga kayanya ga mempan buat dia.
Malah sepertinya tadi gue ngomong terlalu to the point en yang ada dia jadi tambah ngerasa hopeless. Oh my God -______-
Now u see, ternyata ada baiknya juga kan jadi orang yang gampang bosan *haha*
~Tick...Tock..Tick...Tock~
~Who'd Have Known~
The bad mood I was talking about a few days ago, it's not getting better. Good news is it's not getting any worse either. So, I should consider myself pretty lucky. No?
The reason for my bad mood yesterday = I felt so f*cked up at night I couldn't finish my assignment. Hmm, gue jadi kedengaran kaya tipe manusia geek yang selalu rajin ngerjain tugas aja.. Emang sich gue ga selalu nyelesai'in semua tugas kampus [but most of the time I did. Self-defense, ya know?] tapi biasanya begitu gue mulai ngerjain assignment, I could get so concentrated on it I don't give a damn on anything else.
Hari kemarin dimulai dengan sangat baik - baik aja waktu gue, melda, dea, naomi en yenny syuting *tsah* iklan buat tugas mata kuliah art culture and sport appreciation besok. Kita ngiklanin nasi kuning en kemarin syuting, kemarin juga baru nyiapin semua bahan - bahan yang diperluin. Not only we share "lebay-ness" as something we have in common, kita juga sama - sama jago dalam procrastinating..sweet -_-
*nasi kuning..makanan Indonesia favorite gue, selain bakso, empek2 en masi banyak lagi..swt*
*the five of us.. thank u so much self-timer*
Sekitar jam 7 kita dah selesai bikin iklan. Abis makan - makan bentar [which I didn't finish and it's kinda weird for a big eater like ME], gue, melda, en yenny ke PTC buat jaga stand. This was where it all started. Ga tau apa karena gue emang udah kecapekan gara - gara ngerjain iklan dari siang ampe sore en malemnya mesti jaga stand, atau karena di stand gue juga rada bete ama anak - anak kelompok gue [padahal mereka ga ngapa - ngapain.. Yes, I just being weird like that..damn], atau karena abis pulang dari PTC gue masi harus ngerjain tugas Operational Management lagi. All I knew is I was so upset I cried myself to sleep for no particular reason hoping it could ease whatever shitty mood I felt. It did though =) I fell asleep straight away after that. What a way to end such a nice day..
On a lighter note, selain ngerasa emo, gue juga ngerasa kalo akhir - akhir ini semua di sekitar gue baek banget. Mulai dari situasi - situasi yang gue alamin sampe orang - orang di dalemnya. Gue jadi tamba bingung kenapa gue bisa ngerasa emo.. Waktu gue ga bisa ngerjain tugas, ada orang jayus yang mau bantuin [peace yandonk!], siangnya ada Dea yang ngasi jawaban en gue tinggal paraphrasing doank, my parents were so nice to me we rarely argue, and those hang out times with my close friends which were so fun [baek yang di kampus, maupun yang di luar kampus] .
Last but not least, gue seneng punya dd seperti yang gue punya sekarang. We can actually hang out together with or without our other friends... Kaya tadi siang dia nemenin gue nyari kado buat Melda. Then, dia nraktir gue teh gopek, gue nraktir dia pentol [hahahaha...], dia nraktir gue kentang K-Patat di mana akhirnya cuma beli satu buat bagi dua soalnya perut gue lagi ga enak karena seharian penuh belum makan, en beli dvd-5-gratis-1 trus ngebiarin salah satu untuk milih gratisannya en dia milih film hantu karena tau gue demen film horor.. Tell me, isn't that cool? *big smiley face*
~Recovering~
The reason for my bad mood yesterday = I felt so f*cked up at night I couldn't finish my assignment. Hmm, gue jadi kedengaran kaya tipe manusia geek yang selalu rajin ngerjain tugas aja.. Emang sich gue ga selalu nyelesai'in semua tugas kampus [but most of the time I did. Self-defense, ya know?] tapi biasanya begitu gue mulai ngerjain assignment, I could get so concentrated on it I don't give a damn on anything else.
Hari kemarin dimulai dengan sangat baik - baik aja waktu gue, melda, dea, naomi en yenny syuting *tsah* iklan buat tugas mata kuliah art culture and sport appreciation besok. Kita ngiklanin nasi kuning en kemarin syuting, kemarin juga baru nyiapin semua bahan - bahan yang diperluin. Not only we share "lebay-ness" as something we have in common, kita juga sama - sama jago dalam procrastinating..sweet -_-
*nasi kuning..makanan Indonesia favorite gue, selain bakso, empek2 en masi banyak lagi..swt*
*albeit my bad mood I could still smile as bright as the color of the rice.. Eh, actually I was quite happy at that moment*
*the five of us.. thank u so much self-timer*Sekitar jam 7 kita dah selesai bikin iklan. Abis makan - makan bentar [which I didn't finish and it's kinda weird for a big eater like ME], gue, melda, en yenny ke PTC buat jaga stand. This was where it all started. Ga tau apa karena gue emang udah kecapekan gara - gara ngerjain iklan dari siang ampe sore en malemnya mesti jaga stand, atau karena di stand gue juga rada bete ama anak - anak kelompok gue [padahal mereka ga ngapa - ngapain.. Yes, I just being weird like that..damn], atau karena abis pulang dari PTC gue masi harus ngerjain tugas Operational Management lagi. All I knew is I was so upset I cried myself to sleep for no particular reason hoping it could ease whatever shitty mood I felt. It did though =) I fell asleep straight away after that. What a way to end such a nice day..
On a lighter note, selain ngerasa emo, gue juga ngerasa kalo akhir - akhir ini semua di sekitar gue baek banget. Mulai dari situasi - situasi yang gue alamin sampe orang - orang di dalemnya. Gue jadi tamba bingung kenapa gue bisa ngerasa emo.. Waktu gue ga bisa ngerjain tugas, ada orang jayus yang mau bantuin [peace yandonk!], siangnya ada Dea yang ngasi jawaban en gue tinggal paraphrasing doank, my parents were so nice to me we rarely argue, and those hang out times with my close friends which were so fun [baek yang di kampus, maupun yang di luar kampus] .
Last but not least, gue seneng punya dd seperti yang gue punya sekarang. We can actually hang out together with or without our other friends... Kaya tadi siang dia nemenin gue nyari kado buat Melda. Then, dia nraktir gue teh gopek, gue nraktir dia pentol [hahahaha...], dia nraktir gue kentang K-Patat di mana akhirnya cuma beli satu buat bagi dua soalnya perut gue lagi ga enak karena seharian penuh belum makan, en beli dvd-5-gratis-1 trus ngebiarin salah satu untuk milih gratisannya en dia milih film hantu karena tau gue demen film horor.. Tell me, isn't that cool? *big smiley face*
~Recovering~
~A Little Thing Called Regret~
Udah beberapa hari terakhir ini mood gue rada ga enak. Gue ga ngerti apa itu karena Surabaya belum ujan padahal harusnya udah masuk musim ujan, atau apa itu karena 2 minggu lagi gue ada final exam, atau karena akhir - akhir ini gue kurang ngonsumsi karbohidrat/protein/whatever yang intinya gue kurang makan. Surprisingly, my appetite has gone and these few days I couldn't finish any hard food I ate, not even frozen yogurt..and I've been eating once a day damn it. Kadang kalo dipaksain makan, yang ada malah mau muntah. Tapi gue rasa, alasan ini kebalik. Harusnya, gara - gara gue terlalu emo, gue jadi ngerasa kenyang mulu. Walaupun dengan cara ini gue bisa sedikit kurusan. I am not happy.
The reason I am being such an emo kid is different every day. It keeps changing. Ga, gue ga lagi PMS.
Alasan hari ini = Ada satu hal yang dulu gue lakuin, en sekarang gue nyesel. I am missing someone at this very moment. Dulu kita sempat deket en I was the one who ruined everything. The worst part is, I was aware of what I did. I drove him away for I believed that once he falls into "friend zone", it's impossible for me to see him in any other way. Padahal, kalo mau diliat dari awal en seandainya gue waktu itu mau jujur ama diri gue sendiri, sebenarnya gue interested ama dia. Terus, kita sempet lost contact karena beberapa alasan. Waktu kita contact2an lagi, gue juga ngerasa interested ama dia. The thing is, I kept telling myself that what I felt was not really what I thought I felt. One of my besties told me that it's obvious that he felt the same [jujur, gue juga nyadar...cuma sibuk nyangkal] and asked why I don't wanna give it a try. To which I replied :
1. Ga lha, dia cuma nganggep gue temen [after all those things he did..stupid me]
2. Dia baik banget, gue ga pengen kehilangan temen kaya dia. Makanya gue ga mau nyoba, karena kalo putus...ntar takutnya malah ga bisa temenan lagi [I'm friends with most of my exes]
3. The "friend zone" thingy [the end]
Sialnya, sekarang gue baru nyadar kalo dia ga pernah masuk ke "friend zone" itu sampe gue sendiri yang nyoba ngedorong dia ke sana, tapi ga sukses..while I pushed myself to his, SUCCESSFULLY. what the hell.
*note = semua yang gue tulis di atas, bisa bener..bisa juga separuh bener. Gue lagi emo, remember?*
~Life Is Unpredictable. I Am Waiting For That "Unpredictable" Thingy~
The reason I am being such an emo kid is different every day. It keeps changing. Ga, gue ga lagi PMS.
Alasan hari ini = Ada satu hal yang dulu gue lakuin, en sekarang gue nyesel. I am missing someone at this very moment. Dulu kita sempat deket en I was the one who ruined everything. The worst part is, I was aware of what I did. I drove him away for I believed that once he falls into "friend zone", it's impossible for me to see him in any other way. Padahal, kalo mau diliat dari awal en seandainya gue waktu itu mau jujur ama diri gue sendiri, sebenarnya gue interested ama dia. Terus, kita sempet lost contact karena beberapa alasan. Waktu kita contact2an lagi, gue juga ngerasa interested ama dia. The thing is, I kept telling myself that what I felt was not really what I thought I felt. One of my besties told me that it's obvious that he felt the same [jujur, gue juga nyadar...cuma sibuk nyangkal] and asked why I don't wanna give it a try. To which I replied :
1. Ga lha, dia cuma nganggep gue temen [after all those things he did..stupid me]
2. Dia baik banget, gue ga pengen kehilangan temen kaya dia. Makanya gue ga mau nyoba, karena kalo putus...ntar takutnya malah ga bisa temenan lagi [I'm friends with most of my exes]
3. The "friend zone" thingy [the end]
Sialnya, sekarang gue baru nyadar kalo dia ga pernah masuk ke "friend zone" itu sampe gue sendiri yang nyoba ngedorong dia ke sana, tapi ga sukses..while I pushed myself to his, SUCCESSFULLY. what the hell.
*note = semua yang gue tulis di atas, bisa bener..bisa juga separuh bener. Gue lagi emo, remember?*
~Life Is Unpredictable. I Am Waiting For That "Unpredictable" Thingy~
~My New Found Love~
A Short Introduction :
*Bean*
Hello world, I've found my new love which turns out to be a male puppy [not female like what i thought before].
I bought love, loyalty, a single trusting heart [of course I copied it from somewhere..damn it] and brought him home on Wednesday, 10 November 2009. According to the seller, he was born on 30th of August, makes him 2 months and 13 days old by the time I wrote this post up.
As you could see from my previous posts, I only prepared one name when I decided to search for a new puppy. I was so sure that I would buy a female one and did not prepare for a male puppy's name. Ok, it's not really my fault because at first I only wanted a female puppy. But, he is too cute. No?
Bear, Honey, Beamer, Vincent [I seriously got scolded for using my brother's name for a dog = not respecting him..damn it] are a few names I wanna called him with. I was too confused and asked my papi to decide. So, he calls him BEAN from Mr. Bean (-.-!)
~And BEAN Is His Name-O~
*Bean*Hello world, I've found my new love which turns out to be a male puppy [not female like what i thought before].
I bought love, loyalty, a single trusting heart [of course I copied it from somewhere..damn it] and brought him home on Wednesday, 10 November 2009. According to the seller, he was born on 30th of August, makes him 2 months and 13 days old by the time I wrote this post up.
As you could see from my previous posts, I only prepared one name when I decided to search for a new puppy. I was so sure that I would buy a female one and did not prepare for a male puppy's name. Ok, it's not really my fault because at first I only wanted a female puppy. But, he is too cute. No?
Bear, Honey, Beamer, Vincent [I seriously got scolded for using my brother's name for a dog = not respecting him..damn it] are a few names I wanna called him with. I was too confused and asked my papi to decide. So, he calls him BEAN from Mr. Bean (-.-!)
~And BEAN Is His Name-O~
~Till Then Mandy~
*Update = with consistent persuasions, i got a yellow-almost-green light from my parents'..yay*
Gue ga jadi beli shih tzu. Kemaren baca iklan di Jawa Pos, ada yang jual anjing maltese mix mini pom.. Yach, mirip - mirip Maltipoo dech *was guessing..coz no picture how to see..duh* So, I called the person and went there this afternoon.
Rumahnya lumayan jauh.. Ada kali 1 jam gue duduk di mobil, smsan, denger radio, en ngeliatin jalan. All while fantasizing about the new puppy I thought would be called Mandy. In the end, it turns out that the female one is BLACK in color *sigh*
Waktu gue nelpon, yang jual juga uda bilang kalo bulu anjing yang cewe ada warna hitamnya karena kakek si anjing ada campuran shih tzu. Gue kira, hitamnya paling dikit doank en seneng juga ada campuran shih tzu. Ternyata, yang putih cuma paws en mulutnya doank.. *Feli shocked..ala Yamapi*
Puppy yang satu lagi lucu banget.. Sekali lagi dech, BANGET! Terakhir, BANGET!! Ok, now I annoyed myself..duh. Tuch anjing warna cream, small in size, and really cute i tell ya. Tapi, dia jantan *double SIGH!!!!!!!* Still, I love that dog so much and..
Gue terlanjur ngasi uang muka buat beli anjing itu. Now, these are what I have in mind the whole day=
1. Gimana kalo dia pipis sembarangan sambil ngangkat satu kaki yang akhirnya pipisnya jadi ke sana sini gitu.
2. Gimana kalo dia udah gede en demen humping2 di kaki gue en waktu itu ada tamu whoever the tamu is damn it.
Gue ga mungkin naruh dia di luar supaya rumah ga kotor karena dia pipis sembarangan for he is too cute to sleep outside en kaya gue bakal tega aja nyuruh puppy sekecil itu tidur di luar. Jangankan taruh di luar, dipelihara dalem kandang aja gue ga bakal tega..
3. GIMANA KALO ORTU GUE MARAH GUE BAWA PULANG DIA?!
Tadi waktu pulang en baru masuk rumah, gue pura - pura ngomong ama Mandy. U know, I kept calling "Mandy Mandy...". Plus, I talked as if I introduced Mandy to Poppy some more. Yes, kaya orang gila. I wanted to see my parents' reaction u see.. Then, almost got scolded from my father for he thought I really bring a new puppy home (-_____-!)
4. Dia jantan, warnanya cream. Kasi nama apa yach? Bear, Caramel, Honey, Creamy? Ato apa? I really want to call him Honey..tapi dia jantan. Oh, well.. mungkin namanya Beamer.
In the meantime,
*sayank sayank sayank her [and myself..wth] so much*
And hey, below is Baby! Maltese mix Pomeranian. Waktu balik Indo, si Baby gue kasi ke Maya, temen deket gue yang di sana. Ga bisa dibawa balik Indo. Tiketnya mahal en ngurusnya rada repot. Sekarang, Baby dah gede =)
*she reminds me of Melbourne*
Lama - lama mikirin gimana cara bawa pulang anjing baru ke rumah, cape juga.
~Bought Love And Faith And A Whole Job Lot~
Gue ga jadi beli shih tzu. Kemaren baca iklan di Jawa Pos, ada yang jual anjing maltese mix mini pom.. Yach, mirip - mirip Maltipoo dech *was guessing..coz no picture how to see..duh* So, I called the person and went there this afternoon.
Rumahnya lumayan jauh.. Ada kali 1 jam gue duduk di mobil, smsan, denger radio, en ngeliatin jalan. All while fantasizing about the new puppy I thought would be called Mandy. In the end, it turns out that the female one is BLACK in color *sigh*
Waktu gue nelpon, yang jual juga uda bilang kalo bulu anjing yang cewe ada warna hitamnya karena kakek si anjing ada campuran shih tzu. Gue kira, hitamnya paling dikit doank en seneng juga ada campuran shih tzu. Ternyata, yang putih cuma paws en mulutnya doank.. *Feli shocked..ala Yamapi*
Puppy yang satu lagi lucu banget.. Sekali lagi dech, BANGET! Terakhir, BANGET!! Ok, now I annoyed myself..duh. Tuch anjing warna cream, small in size, and really cute i tell ya. Tapi, dia jantan *double SIGH!!!!!!!* Still, I love that dog so much and..
Gue terlanjur ngasi uang muka buat beli anjing itu. Now, these are what I have in mind the whole day=
1. Gimana kalo dia pipis sembarangan sambil ngangkat satu kaki yang akhirnya pipisnya jadi ke sana sini gitu.
2. Gimana kalo dia udah gede en demen humping2 di kaki gue en waktu itu ada tamu whoever the tamu is damn it.
Gue ga mungkin naruh dia di luar supaya rumah ga kotor karena dia pipis sembarangan for he is too cute to sleep outside en kaya gue bakal tega aja nyuruh puppy sekecil itu tidur di luar. Jangankan taruh di luar, dipelihara dalem kandang aja gue ga bakal tega..
3. GIMANA KALO ORTU GUE MARAH GUE BAWA PULANG DIA?!
Tadi waktu pulang en baru masuk rumah, gue pura - pura ngomong ama Mandy. U know, I kept calling "Mandy Mandy...". Plus, I talked as if I introduced Mandy to Poppy some more. Yes, kaya orang gila. I wanted to see my parents' reaction u see.. Then, almost got scolded from my father for he thought I really bring a new puppy home (-_____-!)
4. Dia jantan, warnanya cream. Kasi nama apa yach? Bear, Caramel, Honey, Creamy? Ato apa? I really want to call him Honey..tapi dia jantan. Oh, well.. mungkin namanya Beamer.
In the meantime,
*sayank sayank sayank her [and myself..wth] so much*And hey, below is Baby! Maltese mix Pomeranian. Waktu balik Indo, si Baby gue kasi ke Maya, temen deket gue yang di sana. Ga bisa dibawa balik Indo. Tiketnya mahal en ngurusnya rada repot. Sekarang, Baby dah gede =)
*she reminds me of Melbourne*Lama - lama mikirin gimana cara bawa pulang anjing baru ke rumah, cape juga.
~Bought Love And Faith And A Whole Job Lot~
~Oh Mandy?~
Kalo lo kenal gue, gede kemungkinannya lo juga uda kenal ama dia atau pernah denger tentang dia. Bahkan ada temen gue yang manggil gue pake namanya.
*Poppy*
A little puppy who shows me that I can love something more than I love myself [and family..duh].
*angel in disguise... (0^-^0)*
I look so fugly in that pic I just cropped myself away.
Anyway, udah satu minggu terakhir ini gue pengen banget punya anjing lagi. Bukan buat ngeganti'in Poppy atau gue uda ga sayang ama dia lagi.. Hm, gue juga ga tau alasannya apa. Yang gue tau, gue pengen punya anjing lagi. Itu aja.
Pertama, gue pengen punya toy poodle warna putih. Terus, ganti pengen punya Maltipoo. Tapi, di Surabaya, susah banget nyari anjing campuran. Gara - gara Maltipoo terlalu susah dicari, gue pengen punya mini maltese. Terakhir, gue pengen punya anjing mini Shih Tzu.
Syaratnya ga banyak sich = gue pengen mini shih tzu yang kalo umurnya tamba gede ukurannya jangan ikutan gede, HARUS BETINA, maximal 2 bulan, harganya ga sampe 2 juta en lucu.
Hampir setiap hari gue dateng ke pet shop - pet shop di PTC [sekalian jaga stand, tugas kampus] en ngeliat anjing - anjingnya. Hari ini, gue liat mini shih tzu yang gue suka uda kebeli orang. Gue ga sedi sich, karena harganya mahal en gue juga ga bakal beli. FYI, gara - gara anjing itu makanya gue jadi pengen mini shih tzu. She is FREAKING CUTE! Then, ada satu toko yang selalu gue samperin tiap kali jalan - jalan liat anjing, en tadi ada satu shih tzu yang gue suka. Harganya juga sesuai budget.
*mirip ini*
Masalahnya, gimana caranya gue bawa Mandy pulang?! Ortu gue ga setuju kalo gue beli anjing lagi. Katanya, ntar repot kalo pup en pee sembarangan. Selama ini, yang mandi'in Poppy tuch nyokap gue [atau ke salon] en yang bersihin "pup/pee"nya tuch bokap gue. Satu lagi, gue bisa sich beli pake uang sendiri. Tapi itu berarti gue mesti puasa ampe akhir bulan donk? Gue juga takut kalo besok [yes besok!] gue beli en bawa pulang Mandy, ntar ortu gue malah marah. Gue yakin sich mereka bakal sayang ama Mandy juga en ga bakal marah ampe berhari - hari ke gue. Tapi... Gimana nich????!!!!! O yach, misalnya gue ga jadi beli tuch shih tzu, anjing gue selanjutnya bakal tetep gue kasi nama Mandy. Alasannya kapan - kapan gue cerita'in, yang pasti ada hubungannya ama orang yang pernah gue kenal di Singapore.
What should I do? Ow Mandy =(
Ganti topik.
Tadi waktu jaga stand gue ngobrol - ngobrol ama Andi, anak kampus gue jurusan psychology. Sebelum gue kenal dia, gue uda kenal duluan ama kokonya waktu les mandarin bareng. Ternyata Surabaya ga gede - gede amet. Nah, Andi sekarang les di tempat itu juga en dia cerita kalo Febuari nanti dia mau berangkat ke Tianjin. Awalnya gue kira dia mau bolos kuliah. Ternyata, dia mau cuti kuliah 1 taon en belajar bahasa dulu di sana.
Conversation kecil ini, reminds me that deep inside my heart, I wanna be somewhere else for a period of time. answer - obviously not right now. I can't just quit my school and do whatever I want, right? Maybe some things in life go exactly the way I want them to. But not everything. Life is never that easy. If it is, it won't be this fun. No? Paling ga, dengan begini, I have something to look forward to =)
Lastly,
I have this one best friend since high school. Singkat cerita, dia uda ga kuliah en kerjaannya sekarang bantu'in bokapnya jaga toko atau bantu nyokap di rumah. Nah, temen baek gue ini cewe en mulai dari taon kemaren rada ngebet pengen punya cowo yang mau serius en tujuannya merit. Setiap kali dia sms gue, topiknya bisa dibilang itu itu aja. Sms - sms dia selalu tentang kapan yach dia bakal ketemu the right one, dari siapa dia bakal kenal orang itu, atau cerita kalo dia barusan dikenalin tapi tuch cowo keliatannya masi mau pacaran2 doank. Padahal, temen gue ini pengennya kalo uda suka ama suka ya langsung lamar aja [hm, i know it doesn't sound right.. But, given her situation. Well, too long to explain].
O yach, I am not complaining, ok? I don't mind smsan tentang topik itu mulu. En ga perlu munafik, setiap kali cewe ngobrol bareng, topik tentang cowo emang paling sering diomongin.
The thing is, dia cuma lebi tua dari gue 1 taon DAN DIA CANTIK! Dia cakep en langsing en bingung masalah cowo?? It's like....screw me!
Efek samping = Lama - lama gue juga jadi ikut kepikiran. I wrote somewhere in my blog that I wanna get married when I am 25 or 26 later. Gue rasa itu wajar kan? Daripada ntar udah umur 30 en sok "gue ga papa koq belum merit ampe umur segini...blablabla", padahal aslinya ya pusing juga. Ok, it doesn't have to be 26. 27 or 28 juga gpp. But not 28 onwards ya Tuhan. Sampe sekarang, i don't mind being single. And am not seriously desperately looking for one either [kecuali ada yang secakep Choky Sitohang..haha]. Tapi karena smsan ama temen baek gue yang cantik, langsing tapi bingung tentang cowo itu. Gue jadi rada ikutan worry juga! U know, dia yang cantik en langsing [am fully aware kalo uda nyebutin itu 3 kali] aja bisa bingung, gimana gue yang ga secakep dia en gendut gini?! Damn! Gue bener - bener harus berhenti makan. Like, STOP TOTALLY! *cry me a river*
~Confuses~
*Poppy* A little puppy who shows me that I can love something more than I love myself [and family..duh].
*angel in disguise... (0^-^0)*Anyway, udah satu minggu terakhir ini gue pengen banget punya anjing lagi. Bukan buat ngeganti'in Poppy atau gue uda ga sayang ama dia lagi.. Hm, gue juga ga tau alasannya apa. Yang gue tau, gue pengen punya anjing lagi. Itu aja.
Pertama, gue pengen punya toy poodle warna putih. Terus, ganti pengen punya Maltipoo. Tapi, di Surabaya, susah banget nyari anjing campuran. Gara - gara Maltipoo terlalu susah dicari, gue pengen punya mini maltese. Terakhir, gue pengen punya anjing mini Shih Tzu.
Syaratnya ga banyak sich = gue pengen mini shih tzu yang kalo umurnya tamba gede ukurannya jangan ikutan gede, HARUS BETINA, maximal 2 bulan, harganya ga sampe 2 juta en lucu.
Hampir setiap hari gue dateng ke pet shop - pet shop di PTC [sekalian jaga stand, tugas kampus] en ngeliat anjing - anjingnya. Hari ini, gue liat mini shih tzu yang gue suka uda kebeli orang. Gue ga sedi sich, karena harganya mahal en gue juga ga bakal beli. FYI, gara - gara anjing itu makanya gue jadi pengen mini shih tzu. She is FREAKING CUTE! Then, ada satu toko yang selalu gue samperin tiap kali jalan - jalan liat anjing, en tadi ada satu shih tzu yang gue suka. Harganya juga sesuai budget.
*mirip ini*Masalahnya, gimana caranya gue bawa Mandy pulang?! Ortu gue ga setuju kalo gue beli anjing lagi. Katanya, ntar repot kalo pup en pee sembarangan. Selama ini, yang mandi'in Poppy tuch nyokap gue [atau ke salon] en yang bersihin "pup/pee"nya tuch bokap gue. Satu lagi, gue bisa sich beli pake uang sendiri. Tapi itu berarti gue mesti puasa ampe akhir bulan donk? Gue juga takut kalo besok [yes besok!] gue beli en bawa pulang Mandy, ntar ortu gue malah marah. Gue yakin sich mereka bakal sayang ama Mandy juga en ga bakal marah ampe berhari - hari ke gue. Tapi... Gimana nich????!!!!! O yach, misalnya gue ga jadi beli tuch shih tzu, anjing gue selanjutnya bakal tetep gue kasi nama Mandy. Alasannya kapan - kapan gue cerita'in, yang pasti ada hubungannya ama orang yang pernah gue kenal di Singapore.
What should I do? Ow Mandy =(
Ganti topik.
Tadi waktu jaga stand gue ngobrol - ngobrol ama Andi, anak kampus gue jurusan psychology. Sebelum gue kenal dia, gue uda kenal duluan ama kokonya waktu les mandarin bareng. Ternyata Surabaya ga gede - gede amet. Nah, Andi sekarang les di tempat itu juga en dia cerita kalo Febuari nanti dia mau berangkat ke Tianjin. Awalnya gue kira dia mau bolos kuliah. Ternyata, dia mau cuti kuliah 1 taon en belajar bahasa dulu di sana.
Conversation kecil ini, reminds me that deep inside my heart, I wanna be somewhere else for a period of time. answer - obviously not right now. I can't just quit my school and do whatever I want, right? Maybe some things in life go exactly the way I want them to. But not everything. Life is never that easy. If it is, it won't be this fun. No? Paling ga, dengan begini, I have something to look forward to =)
Lastly,
I have this one best friend since high school. Singkat cerita, dia uda ga kuliah en kerjaannya sekarang bantu'in bokapnya jaga toko atau bantu nyokap di rumah. Nah, temen baek gue ini cewe en mulai dari taon kemaren rada ngebet pengen punya cowo yang mau serius en tujuannya merit. Setiap kali dia sms gue, topiknya bisa dibilang itu itu aja. Sms - sms dia selalu tentang kapan yach dia bakal ketemu the right one, dari siapa dia bakal kenal orang itu, atau cerita kalo dia barusan dikenalin tapi tuch cowo keliatannya masi mau pacaran2 doank. Padahal, temen gue ini pengennya kalo uda suka ama suka ya langsung lamar aja [hm, i know it doesn't sound right.. But, given her situation. Well, too long to explain].
O yach, I am not complaining, ok? I don't mind smsan tentang topik itu mulu. En ga perlu munafik, setiap kali cewe ngobrol bareng, topik tentang cowo emang paling sering diomongin.
The thing is, dia cuma lebi tua dari gue 1 taon DAN DIA CANTIK! Dia cakep en langsing en bingung masalah cowo?? It's like....screw me!
Efek samping = Lama - lama gue juga jadi ikut kepikiran. I wrote somewhere in my blog that I wanna get married when I am 25 or 26 later. Gue rasa itu wajar kan? Daripada ntar udah umur 30 en sok "gue ga papa koq belum merit ampe umur segini...blablabla", padahal aslinya ya pusing juga. Ok, it doesn't have to be 26. 27 or 28 juga gpp. But not 28 onwards ya Tuhan. Sampe sekarang, i don't mind being single. And am not seriously desperately looking for one either [kecuali ada yang secakep Choky Sitohang..haha]. Tapi karena smsan ama temen baek gue yang cantik, langsing tapi bingung tentang cowo itu. Gue jadi rada ikutan worry juga! U know, dia yang cantik en langsing [am fully aware kalo uda nyebutin itu 3 kali] aja bisa bingung, gimana gue yang ga secakep dia en gendut gini?! Damn! Gue bener - bener harus berhenti makan. Like, STOP TOTALLY! *cry me a river*
~Confuses~
~ Wander And Wonder~
Where did we come from?
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?
They say, life is too short,
The here and the now
And you're only given one shot
But could there be more,
Have I lived before,
Or could this be all that we've got?
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?
They say, life is too short,
The here and the now
And you're only given one shot
But could there be more,
Have I lived before,
Or could this be all that we've got?
