~Si Mom Yang Nyebelin~

back from a damn long hiatus.

I was so damn pissed off with my mom right now [since this afternoon to be exact]. No, am not referring to my biological mother but to my "mama angkat". Haiz.. never mind, I'll explain to whoever you are. So, besides my biological mother [I call her "mami"], I have this "mama angkat". She is my father's older brother's wife and I call her "Mom". Got it got it?! Arghh..

[at this moment, I'm so tempted to put her picture up on my blog. But, as the saying goes..always prepare for the worst. Who knows one day she gonna see it? right? right?! Now, i feel like a 'chicken'. damn it]

Jadi gini yach, sepertinya di setiap keluarga pasti ada salah satu anggotanya yang ga tau aturan, ga tau sopan santun, pokoknya yang nyebelin BANGET dech. Si nyebelin ini biasanya emang ga disukain ama hampir semua anggota keluarga yang lain juga [jadi bukan lo doank yang ga suka ama dia..].

Nah, si Mom nyebelin ini ga disukain gara - gara gayanya yang OKB banget, alias Orang Kaya Baru. Dari apa yang gue denger, dia ini dulunya dari keluarga yang biasa banget. Then, she got married to my daddy [my father's older brother. Remember?] who's the richest person in our family. Dari sini, mulai dech tingkahnya yang aneh bin ga tau sopan santu itu dimulai..

Supaya lebi simple en singkat, gue tulis dalam bentuk daftar aja. Here goes,

Daftar perbuatan si mom nyebelin=

1. Waktu baru married, dia tinggal serumah ama grandma gue. Kerjaannya tiap bangun pagi tu langsung mandi en DANDAN! Pake kaos jalan + jeans di ruma, en perhaps some light make up. EVEN WHEN SHE'S NOT GOING ANYWHERE FOR THE WHOLE F*CKING DAY! Terus nonton TV sebentar, dilanjutin ama mengurung diri di kamar sampai jam makan siang.

2. Biasanya, menantu yang nyiapin makanan terus manggil mertuanya makan. Iya kan? Iya, itu kalo si menantu punya sopan santun en tau diri. Nah, yang ini malah kebalikannya. Amma gue yang masak dibantu ama pembantu. Terus waktu makanan udah siap di meja, amma gue juga yang ngetok pintu kamar dia en manggil dia makan. Luar biasa! Padahal dia sehat bugar, tapi tingkahnya kaya orang baru balik dari rumah sakit abis melahirkan..ckck.

[MULAI DARI SINI, GUE BENER - BENER OFFENDED AMA PERBUATAN DIA SECARA DIA NGELAKUIN INI KE NYOKAP GUE!]
3. Ngakunya sich dia lulusan Amerika, en dia soknya minta ampun!!! Dari dulu, dia kalo sms nyokap gue, sukanya gaya - gayaan pake bahasa inggris. Selain itu, kalo sms ga ada stopnya. Pernah sekali itu dia sms nyokap gue pake bahasa inggris en nyebelin abis. Akhirnya, gue yang bales2an ama dia...duh.

4. Tadi, dia mulai belagak lagi. Nyokap beli'in baju buat anaknya untuk acara Chinese New Year. Kebetulan si anak ga suka pake baju berkerah en yang dikasi nyokap tuch ada kerahnya. Dia minta nyokap gue untuk ganti ama baju yang laen. Gpp sich kalo dia minta nyokap ganti'in tuch baju. Tapi apa perlu dia ngasi tau kalo dia ga suka ke Pasar Atum gara - gara Pasar Atum sumpek ama jorok. Please dech! Presiden aja bisa makan pecel di warung! And mind you, Pasar Atum sama kaya Mangga Dua di Jakarta.. Gelo ah, dasar Orang Kaya Baru ya gitu dech!

5. Dia nanya ama nyokap, size baju gue masi T3 atau sekarang uda jadi T4? Damn her! Dia kira dia tinggal di Paris?? Pake T3 T4 sgala.. Apa susahnya sich nanya S, M, atau L?! Lagian apaan tuch maksudnya sekarang gue uda T4?! T4 refers to LARGE..what the hell. For your information, she's such a chicken she didn't dare to insult me in person! She sent me a message in Facebook asking whether I'm still T3 or slimmer already.. Why didn't she ask me directly if I am getting fatter or not?! The funny thing is, 2 out of her 3 kids are OBESE. Ok, i love her kids and i love my daddy.. the only person I hate is her and only her! [well, am quite a sensitive person especially when it comes to weight..huhuuu]

Anyway, hari ini gue sukses nahan kesel seharian.. Gue ga langsung bales message dia di Facebook dengan kata - kata yang sarcastic or whatever. All thanks to si pacar en juga sesi ngegym hari ini.

Tapi barusan gue sengaja nulis status tentang dia di Facebook. Hope she'll read it. O yach, ga lupa juga gue bales message dia dengan rada sombong juga...mwahaha..

Nite2 er'one.. Gonna publish new photos to facebook. Bye2.

~Having A Headache~

~Welcoming Two Thousand And Ten~

[supposed to post this up on 2nd of January but I don't have time.. was too busy playing farmville and hanging out with si pacar every-single-day]

I re-read my 2009 resolutions only to realized that I failed most of them..damn it.

I didn't travel to a new city, not even in my own country. I went to Makassar for my new year holiday and so what? That's my 27363443rd times visiting Makassar anyway *sounds so ungrateful wth*

I didn't spend my money wisely enough last year for I tried to enhance my appearance [which also failed..wth] by buying new make up stuffs + a couple of shoes + new dresses, etc. I even bought a new dog last year. So much for spending wisely.

Though I exercised regularly till mid of 2009 and actually lost 7 kg, I gained my weight back somewhere around September. When Muslims started fasting, I started eating like there's no tomorrow (-.-!)

I didn't manage to get a part-time job. I joined Ray White company [a real estate agent] and not even a month I started working, I quit. Anyway, the salary here is not good enough I better used my free time to sleep or watching more dramas or hang out with friends or browsing the internet.

I missed church almost ever single Sunday..wth. There's a point in my life during 2009 when I secretly questioning my beliefs [religion to be precise]. As long as I can remember, my life in 2009 was pretty smooth. I got almost everything I wanted. My parents just bought me a Blackberry, I got myself a new dog, have a boyfriend, school has been quite fun..and yet, here I am, driving myself further and further away from Him. At nights I prayed for Him to pull me closer, strengthen my faith and tighten our relationship just like before.

Anyway, beside those failure, there are certain things I successfully achieved in 2009 as well. I don't get tan, I wear more girly clothes a.k.a dresses, got myself a boyfriend to spend events/holidays with and I think positively [not much negative thinking anymore..mwahaha]. Eh? Wth! Only three not-really-useful things I achieved last year.....duh -__________- [three, not four, cause getting a boyfriend counted as useful..wth]
After all, 2009 was not bad at all..though it's not THAT good.

Here are my 2010 RESOLUTIONS

1. Exercise 3 times a week.
2. Drink more water.
3. Learn Mandarin [take a tuition].
4. SPEND WISELY [I don't need, I don't buy].
5. SAVE MORE $$$$ [am a super stingy person this year]
6. Go to China for the whole December '10 [haven't decided which part of China I wanna go yet].
7. Go to church at least twice a week
8. Be more patient & understanding
9. EAT WISELY [no junk food, eat rice only once a week]
10. Less cynical
11. Treat people like how I wanna be treated [finally..ahahaha]

*F&F*

~Believe that life is worth living and your believe will help create the fact~

~Nothing's Forever~

These past few days I could hardly access the internet (-.-!)
Gue sekarang lagi di Makassar. Tapi ga seperti dulu di mana gue seneng banget tiap kali liburan ke sini en SELALU sedih kalo mesti pulang, kali ini gue pengen pulang.

The true reason behind it =
Gue orang yang paling susah kalo mesti mandi en poo2 di rumah orang. Gue ga suka mandi air dingin, gue ga suka poo2 di toilet jongkok, bahkan di toilet 'duduk'pun gue masi milih - milih [tempat duduknya harus bersih versi gue, ada semprotan air buat bersih2 sehabis poo2, dll], lantai kamar mandi harus bersih en kering. Bahkan, gue lebih milih ga mandi en ga poo2 sama sekali [which I will do when I have to attend that damn school outbond in Januari..wth!] daripada harus mandi or poo2 di kamar mandi yang ga bersih versi gue.
Emang sich, di sini gue masi mau mandi walaupun sehari sekali. Tapi, gue ga bisa poo2 (-.-!)
Akhirnya, hari ini gue nginep di rumah akim gue, supaya bisa numpang poo2 sekalian (-.-!)

The thing is, gue udah minta pulang hari Rabu nanti. Gue dah seminggu di sini, mungkin keliatannya lama. Tapi untuk ukuran liburan ke Makassar, 1 week is like nothing! Pertama kali gue minta pulang, semua ga ngasih! Mulai dari amma, semua sepupu gue, bahkan gokim [semacem auntie] pada ngelarang. It was sweet, right?? Itu artinya kehadiran gue di sini emang diharepin. Cuma ya gitu dech, gue bener - bener pengen pulang aja.. Then, they asked me why? I said I am feeling unwell. Sampai detik gue ngetik ini, gue emang masi flu en ga sembuh - sembuh. Salah satu sepupu gue malah nyuruh gue kalo nyari alasan yang lebih bermutu dikit, en pada bilang kalo flu doank besok juga sembuh (-____________-)
Mind you, I can't tell them the truth, can I?! Anyway, the reason I wanna go home is partly because I really sick. Jadi, gue juga ga bohong.

Sialnya, gue ga tega maksa pulang, karena =
1. Gue dikira'in pengen pulang karena kangen pacar!
2. Gue dikira pengen pulang karena si pacar kalo ke Makassar ga bole tinggal di hotel, harus tinggal juga di rumah salah satu keluarga gue di sini.
3. Semuanya baek banget ama gue, pada minta gue jangan pulang dulu en mau ngapain aja asal gue ga pulang... *terharu mode on*
4. En yang paling utama, karena si pacar uda beli tiket buat nyusul gue ke sini tanggal 30 nanti. Sepertinya si pacar juga mau liat Trans Studio [en sayang kalo tiketnya kebuang] bareng - bareng secara dia juga belum perna ke Makassar.

Jadi akhirnya gue mutusin buat tinggal lebih lama. Bisa dibilang demi si pacar juga en sungkan ama keluarga yang udah baek banget di sini.

On a more serious note,
I kinda despise myself. Kenapa gue jadi sok bersih kaya gini?! Apa kabar diri gue yang ngakunya bisa hidup sederhana?! Memang sich, dari kecil gue udah kaya gini. Tapi dulu gue juga udah pernah ke Makassar, en bisa aja maksa diri gue buat mandi en poo2 di sini. Selama gue bisa ngumpul ama sepupu2 gue di sini, maen kartu ama mereka, jalan2 ama mereka. Karena di sini gue ga pernah ngerasa kesepian... I'd do anything.

But, everything's not the same now.
I dislike 'changes', almost as much as I hate 'separation'.
But, before I know it, I'm not the person I used to be.

I've changed.

~Bye The Old Me~

~The One With Pandora's Box~

Peeping into someone else's privacy [including mails, text messages, letters, social networking website.. Let alone, diaries] is like opening a Pandora's box, unleashing all those terrible things you never knew that person has. [for me, it's a thing..without 'S' which means singular at the moment]

Such a busybody, I trapped my own self into this awful situation where I should act as if nothing's bothering me. Imagine after today I have to fake smiles every single time I see that person I might as well plastered a smiley emoticon on my face.

They say, Let bygone be bygone.
So, why can't I?!

Well, thank God for next Thursday. I'll be going to Makasar for a few weeks and free my mind for a while.

~MOODY! Boo Hoo To Me~

~8 dec '09~

I said 'yes'.
So, it's official that I'm dating someone.

Let's hope i made the right decision and all goes well.

~Eleven Thirty Eight~

~Pause for A Moment~

Besok hari terakhir ujian yang artinya abis itu gue bisa nyantai 2 bulan penuh..yay!

Kalo ujian udah selesai, berarti ga lama lagi sepertinya dia bakal "nanya". En gue, ampe sekarang, masi bingung...Ya Tuhan!!!

I'm so fickle minded. No?! Baru aja kemarin gue ngerasa udah punya jawabannya. Tapi kemarin, gue mulai ragu lagi.

I'm enjoying my current life so much..
with all those attentions and all.

Would his jealousy ruins it?

Perhaps, I should learn about loyalty.
(not that I am a disloyal b*tch, I just want everyone to think that I'm still single..even when I'm not. damnit)

~Could Hardly Breath~

~Berasa Dosen~

To Tessa = Maunya gue nulis di comment box lo, tapi takutnya bakal kepanjangan. Jadi, gue tulis di sini aja dech.
Dulu, waktu baru pulang dari Aussie, gue juga sempet rada sebel ama ortu gara - gara jam pulang. Apalagi waktu gue baru balik, gue sempat libur 1 taon gitu sebelum masuk kuliah lagi. Selama itu, hampir tiap hari gue diajak pergi ama temen - temen [kebanyakkan cowo, tapi seringnya rame - rame koq] en bisa dipasti'in gue baru pulang ruma di atas jam 12. Jarang banget gue pulang sebelum jam 11. Emang sich, ortu gue ga pernah ngebatasin gue cuma bole pergi berapa kali dalam seminggu atau gue harus pulang sebelum jam tertentu. Tapi, of course, mereka sering banget negur gue. Katanya, malu ama tetangga kalo anak cewe koq pulangnya malem - malem. Malu ama tetangga, masa anak cewenya sering dijemput cowo en udah gitu tiap kali cowo yang jemput tuch beda - beda [kan gue ga cuma temenan ama 1 cowo, rite?!]. Selain itu, ortu gue juga bilang kalo cewe pulang malem - malem tuch bahaya. Terakhir yang gue tau, setiap gue diajak pergi en yang ngajak tuch cowo, mereka selalu ngingetin gue buat hati - hati en jangan terlalu percaya ama orang.. sapa tau dia jahat, etc etc.

At first, gue bete juga sich digitu'in. Gue ngerasa, kalo mereka bisa percaya untuk ngirim gue tinggal di Singapore en Melbourne selama kurang lebih 6 TAHUN. Gue ulang dech, 6 tahun-tinggal sendiri-di luar negeri-jauh dari mereka! Kenapa, waktu gue tinggal di Indo, aturan yang harus gue turutin malah lebih banyak? Aneh kan? Apalagi, gue ngerasa kalo umur gue udah kepala 2 [22 taon 9 bulan 14 hari to be exact].

Come to think of it, mereka ga salah. Gue tulis alasannya pake point form aja yach, biar cepet soalnya acara Limbad masuk Aquarium gede uda mulai, gue mau nonton...ahahahahaha *wth* =
1. Kalo lo tinggal di rumah orang laen, di sana pasti ada aturannya juga kan? En suka atau ga, lo harus ikutin. Nah, sama seperti lo tinggal di rumah ortu. Mereka juga punya aturan sendiri. So, bagi gue, selama gue masi hidup dari uang mereka en jadi tanggung jawab mereka en tinggal di rumah mereka.. I guess, we have to live by their rules.

2. Bad things happen. Gue bukannya mau nyumpahin lo kenapa napa sich van, tapi apa kata ortu lo [en ortu gue sendiri] emang bener. Mungkin lo ngerasa ga mungkin lo ampe diganggu orang waktu lagi pulang sendirian malem - malem [abis nganterin temen - temen lo balik] or bla bla bla en ortu lo over worried doank. Tapi, bad things happened and it happened to A LOT of PEOPLE. Secara general, lo baca koran dech. Banyak tau berita - berita orang ditusuk, dicopet, bahkan DIGENDAM! Ok, mungkin lo kira itu kan berita koran doank... Nah, masalahnya, GUE JUGA PERNA KENA BO! Lagi jalan - jalan di mall, en didatengin orang aneh. Tapi karena gue pinter, gue ga mau ikutin dia. Ceritanya panjang, laen kali aja gue cerita. Intinya, salah satu temen kampus gue perna cerita juga en ciri - ciri orangnya sama persis ama orang yang datengin gue itu! [dia cerita duluan, baru gue bilang kalo gue juga perna didategin..] En u know what, temennya yang lagi jalan ama dia kena gendam ampe akhirnya tas dompet en hpnya dia ikut ilang semua. Ini ceritanya panjang..kapan2 aja lha dibahas. Terus selain itu, ortu gue perna diikutin ama 2 orang yang naek motor, mereka nyari gara - gara en minta ortu gue turun, tapi bokap ga mau en kept on driving to the nearest polise station, ampe di sana tuch motor malah ga berani en kabur gitu dech. En masi banyak lha, padahal gue baru 2 taon balik sini. All in all, Indonesia isn't as save as u thing it is.Apalagi kita cewe...

3. Mungkin kita ngerasa udah gede gara - gara umur uda kepala 2. Cuma ya gitu dech, gue sich ngerasa emang perilaku gue belum sedewasa itu, ga tau lagi kalo lo. Contoh kecil, gue masi minta uang ama ortu. Kalo gue sampe kenapa - napa, gue rasa orang yang paling gue susahin ya mereka juga. Anyway, gue ngerasa kalo mereka wajib ngebiayain sekola en hidup gue, jadi uda seharusnya juga gue sebagai anak mereka nurutin aturan mereka kan?

Tuch kan van! Panjaaaang! AHAHAHAHAHA....
Anyway, gue masi sering ngelawan ortu...en masi banyak behaviour gue yang ngga banget sebagai anak. Contoh = Gue kuliah aja bisa bolos, en gue masi suka tidur subuh padahal uda dilarang, en weekend juga masi pulang di atas jam 12. Cuma, gue udah ga bete lagi sich kalo ga dibolehin pergi [pernah lho!] atau disuru pulang cepet...ahahhaha.

Ya uda, gue mau nonton TV dulu. Gimme a call! Gue dah message nomer gue lewat Facebook.
Nitey..

~Christmas' Coming~